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“Mom, Marley, Ellie? I’m home!”  My voice echoed in the house.   And then I realized something… the house was absolutely quiet. Not even a cat -which never happened. The chances of escaping the attentions of five needy and whiny cats that greeted you the moment you came home were… impossible, or around that amount.   “Mom?” I asked dumping my bag onto the floor before peeking into the kitchen. The counter was clean. Maybe mom stressed cleaned before leaving? And didn’t steal any cookies while grading papers?   I looked around the room looking around the room, gulping. Oh god… Racing bac

Okay let me start this off by saying hi, because someone has to be civil today.   Can you guess who it is? For those who can’t it’s Ellie right now. Shocked? I can understand why. I mean Susan’s the happy one and I’m the one that kind of just… sits there doing nothing but sometimes do something.   But today… it’s like a Freaky Friday happened or something. Let me just say what day it is, it’s Valentine’s Day. The day Susan lights up and hands out cards dressed up like an adorable cupid. And I do mean adorable, where she isn’t showing off a shocking amount of skin. She likes to dres

I was being woken up by Susan and my first thought was that in her sleepy stupor she had come up with some mind blowing plan that was actually really idiotic. But because she was in a sleepy stupor when she came up with these plans I always went along with her. And sometimes they weren’t half bad.   But this time… this time I heard crying. And my first thought was that Susan was crying. That thought woke me up in a minute. But looking up at her I saw that that wasn’t the case. She gestured over at Marley and to my mass confusion she was the one crying.   I let Susan drag me over to her and I saw that she wasn’t quite

I woke up. I wasn’t quite sure but I heard crying and a whimper. At first I couldn’t tell if it was from a dream and I was crying or if someone else was. The second idea seemed too preposterous but sure enough when I looked around it wasn’t me. It was Marley.                                           I leaned over to Ellie (who as usual was taking up the whole bed) and shook her awake. I gestured over at Marley and she frowned. Perhaps she was just confused as I was. That might be why she let me drag her over to Marley so easily. I wish I could say I knew what to do. And that I was the one who magically woke up Marley and

Part of being happy for me is making other people happy. Seeing Izzy the day after New Year’s wasn’t exactly a greeting card. And I may not have overlooked her conversation with Aleks. It isn’t hard to tell that she’s madly in love with him and he loves her too! I feel it in my belly. I just have to make him realize it.   Of course I also noticed that she was trying not cry. I mean I know that look, I’ve pulling that look for years.   And as her friend it’s my job to make her feel better. This is why I was dragging Ellie with the junk food and jams over to her house to go see her.   “You know I’

I’m lying on the floor in my closet it seems. I’m curled up of course because there isn’t enough room to be sprawled on the floor.   I don’t bother looking up when I hear my mom open the door and peek in. And I can’t bring myself to look up at her and see how sad she is.   It makes me angry. That the man who used to beat me can come back eight years later and wreck my life. I used to be happy and smile and feel so alive, and now I’m scared that the man that may or may not be following me is him.   I shouldn’t be able to be reduced to a puddle at the thought of him. And I shouldn’t be scared of m

“Leave me alone! I hate you! Go die in a ditch for all I care because I will never, never forgive you!” I yell into the phone ending the call and throwing it to the other side of the room.   As if pretending it’s not real will fix it, I mean my mom pretended my dad wasn’t an abusive drunk until he started hitting me. And look where that got us…   I know I should take my pills but they make me feel dead. They leave me feeling numb when I want to be happy. I know the real reason they want me to take the pills. So I won’t go crazy and beat the first person in sight.   I mean yeah, I may be a little depressed,

"10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!" Five loud voices yelled out. Shockingly mine was the loudest. Or not so shocking after all. I mean I get enthusiastic about new years. I guess Susan's cheeriness is to hard to resist. Everyone was smiling for once and laughing and I'm pretty sure our moms was drunk. At least Susan was concerned enough to drive us our. After we gave gifts of course. Every year we exchange gifts, Marley seems a little surprised when we did so but it was nice shocking her for once. After that when we got back to Susan's place Carol went up to bed and we ran up to Susans room to go watch the Sherlock episode. "Wait how do you a